Never deal your life to a person who DOESN’T KNOW valuing their SPOKEN WORDS

            She just made me a big fool!

I was like a voodoo doll punctured million times and left myriad, vulnerable, unaided and strayed away from the existence.

Sana sinabi niya na lang sa ‘kin na kailangan niya ng laruan to fool around, para naman naiiwas ko yung sarili ko sa ganitong klaseng KALOKOHAN. Everything she did to me is just so unjustifiable, it was just so unethical and it almost (or should I say) already shattered me into ashes. The entire scenario altered my whole life even my self-esteem and most of all my trust and respect to her.

My dreams, my plans, my hopes, she deserted it all! She’s nothing but a ruthless human existence who does not know the difference between the professional attribute contrasts to her child-like viewpoint. Napakaraming beses niya na kong pinagmukang TANGA! Pero nilunok ko lang yun ng dahan-dahan. Besides, it was for my own good. Well I thought it was. But I was such a dupe believing all of her not-worth-a-trust words.

For almost a month I was demoralized and confounded. Without a concrete answer what would I do to fix everything out and to recuperate myself. Dahil lang ba sa isang maliit na pagpapabaya eh katumbas ng buong buhay ko? (yes, I was just turning so hyperbolic because of her..)

Ginawa ko naman lahat ng inutos niya na gagawin ko, lahat ng ‘walang katuturan pala niyang’ directions sa ‘kin. I even spent my free day and free time para puntahan siya at gumastos para lang sa wala. Magpakapagod para lang magmukang tanga sa ibang taong lagi na lang akong nakikita para tanungan sila, at hanapan ng taong ayaw at wala namang planong magpakita.

It was just so late to realize everything. And too late to fix the mistakes, the damage has already done. Their so called adjustment period ended at this very moment.

The truth is I really don’t want to blog anything about her. It just kills me every time I reminisce the word; those unreliable words that hoodwink like me never grasped what kind of result would give me upon believing. Ayoko na rin kasing magkaron pa ng kasalanan, dahil alam kong only my emotions would resemble the blog entry, those heart-bursting emotions. Actually, even though how stiff I am trying to think for certain silver linings to her acts, WALA TALAGA AKONG MAISIP. There’s no fine explanation and better angle to this I-wanna-end story.

Ngayong tapos na ang lahat, I come up to an insight na ituloy whatever else is in store for me. It’s all a matter of working with what’s thrust my way. It’s already done and no single time could be turn back again. And another thing, I’ll never be a loser just because of this circumstance.

I might be broken and blown away today, but prepare for my comeback.